Her name was Siobhan. She was my 2nd cousin. When she was 3 or 4 we called her, Shawnee.

One time, when she was around 3 i think, i was teaching her how to speak. So i’d say, ” Steh-ree-ohhh…” …now you.

She’d say, ” steh-ree-ROh!

And now she’s gone. Yesterday she died. Such a waste. I should have reached out. I am remiss, and will never not blame myself. I could have tried harder.

Now all i can do is write to you about it. I’m trying to make up for lost time, and maybe trying to make myself feel better about not seeing her for so long.

She was a good person. A solid, wicked down to Earth girl who would give you the shirt off her back. I wish she thought more highly of herself…

Maybe she could have gotten help…

i love her just the same and i’m glad for our time, but it hasn’t sunk in that she won’t be back again…